motivation...

Ever After
Bonnie Bailey

Three years ago,my journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start
The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet i fell hard for your imperfections

And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn
Our hands grip together eye to eye through the storm yet
I still believe in ever after with you yeh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we're floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine
Emotions volcanic eruptions
We both still care so we're still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you
I want to make it right

you are my twisted sunshine.......

i'll be missing her...

Mom's leaving to be with her husband. Seems pretty normal for the rest of the family members since it's the nth time my mom will be leaving but not for me....

She arrived here July 2006, stayed for 16 months. The longest stay compared to her other vacations here. I lived with her for just 8 months. We had a big fight. Well, that's the reason why I stayed in the boarding house, lived with people I barely know.

Now, she's leaving. I am not sure when she's coming back and when will I see her again. She bid me goodbye before I go to school, and God! I can't help but cry... I've realized that many months were wasted because of our fight. We could've just stayed with each other, to be together. If I only knew that she will be leaving so soon, I should've apologized earlier. I could've told her how sorry I am for what had happened between us. I feel like I lost all my chances to show her how thankful I am because she was the one who found me...

To my mother, I'm so sorry for all the pains
and the wrong things I have caused you and Will.
I love you so much in spite of all my mistakes and imperfections....

Take care always....

Love you mom...